I'm obsessed and want to blow my brains out?

Hello, I think i've answered one of your questions before? But anyways, I feel the exact same way. I just want to die and go be with Dylan where ever he is. I'm always on his formspring.. im not sure if its real or not.. but i cant to believe that it is! I've been obsessed with Columbine/Dylan for about 3 months so far.. and honestly, did your twilight phase p? Yes. So that means this phase will p. Believe it or not, I've read it could be hormones and im 15 years old.. so no difference there. I feel like i should go to a therapist, but I don't, because I know that this phase will p. And also, I've though of writing Susan Klebold too! I just don't want my parents to find the letter in the mail if she writes back.. I really feel exactly how you do right now, and I want to let you know that you are not alone. I actually feel like I know him and have some connection somehow. Everything I think is about Dylan. First thing i think about when i wake up.. like you, i just wish i had him with me!! :( Good luck !