I NEED YALLS HELP SUMBODY HELP ME PLS!!?

so i have this long short story and its about this 2 dudes that i like well.. love.. but look ever since i moved to this new neighborhood i fell in love with this dude and i thought he was a great person.. n one of my friends who is now one of my enemies hooked me up w/ him n we started going out.. n errthin.. n then idk how long we went out for but i think it was a long time..but we never kissed..n he broke up wit me.. well i was kinda upset.. i thought i wasnt in love.. but wen he broke up wit me i found out dat i was in love.. beacuse i missed him so much.. it was like.. i cant wait to c him again.. he just idk.. i juz love him so much man idk even kno if words can explain.. but idk how he feels for me... beacuse after we broke up .. like in the summer07 he started talking to me n den we kissed.. n dat was my first kiss he was my first boyfriend.. n den sumtin bad happend i gave sumtin.. i GAVE him my all!! :( idk y well dam right it hurt!! but i thought that was love man i was like 13 years old wen dat happend i didnt kno anything.. n now that i know i think what i did be4 waz jus crazy! n now i have a new life a new boyfriend n hes really sweet hes just cool but i dont know if i am in love with him or not beacuse i still have feelings for the other dude and he found out that i was still in love with him but he said he understandsbeacuse he was my first boyfriend.. n idk wat else to do i mean i like him a lot like a lot!! but the other just wants from me beacuse we stopped talking for 2 years.. n i was so happy beacuse he finally talked to me on myspace n he said that i was y n dat he wanted to c me but i said yea i wanna c u to n i miss u while im goin out wit da other dude.. n he said he wanted sum ***** i mean i was just like o hellno!! man!! idk wat to do!! but still havent really talked to him in person!! just on myspace!! but man i freakin love that dude!! with all my heart!! n idk wat to do wit my boyfriend!! sum1 help me pls!1